Didn't really realize it.
It wasn't necessarily intentional.
It just was.
As a result,
Now I've got all kinds of random
Stories
Thoughts
Anecdotes
Floating around my head that I need to park
So, if those types of blogs aren't your thing
You may just want to click that red X in the upper right corner.
Every day we spend together
Feels like another day of peeling back layers
Personality layers
Likes and dislikes layers
Memory layers
Hurt layers
Secret layers
For us both.
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Miss M received a BIG box of crayola crayons this weekend.
I woke up this morning to find her on the couch
Sorting all 96 colors by color families and shades.
She kept telling me how peaceful it made her feel.
It was a very Type A kind of thing.
A kind of thing I did as a kid.
But, believe me.
Type A, she isn't.
Miss M gets a weekly homework packet.
Two weeks we have done a little each night.
Two weeks we've had to do it all throughout one day on the weekend
Because we knew it was going to be too busy throughout the week.
As a teacher, I always felt that homework was a necessary-evil.
Good for practice and review,
But frustrating for collecting and grading.
As a parent, I find homework as an evil-necessary.
A struggle to complete (melt downs, refusals to try, whining, "I don't know.", etc.),
But good for responsibility and perseverance.
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Allowance earnings and loses has been revamped again
To support behavior choices at after school club.
We didn't do so good last week.
But this is a new week.
And a short week.
Fingers crossed.
We are learning
Talking
Discussing
About personal space
Listening to directions
Not interrupting adults.
The allowance component helps.
Feels a little weird to me.
But it seems to stick in her mind better that way.
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Miss M earns money
Miss M spends money.
Reminds me of me as a kid.
Okay. As an adult.
I'm trying to help her learn to save toward something larger
Rather than blow it on something small and minor each time.
(She would spend it on an ice cream cone every day if I let her.)
Oy.
I already hate shop.
Trying to shop and teach life lessons at the same time is just plain exhausting.
This is what she's decided to save up for, though.(Well, at least I think. She changed her mind about 20 times in the store.)
Fingers crossed she gets all that allowance.
I don't think I'll be able to hold her off for 3.
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Miss M loves God music.
(Her words, not mine.)
K-Love, Air-One, Family Life Radio.
I switch back and forth all the time.
(I hate when they talk.)
I made us an M&M playlist this weekend.
Toby Mac's Me Without You
And this one, Where I Belong by Building 429 is our favorites.
She's like me.
Hears it once.
Hums it.
Hears it twice.
Sings along.
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Saturday we received news
That the grant I applied for
Through Arizona Friends of Foster Children Foundations was awarded.
They are covering the cost for a 10-week after school dance/cheer class
For Miss M.
And she is beyond excited.
And so am I.
For her.
And our budget.
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The other day we walk into the house.
Miss M first.
Then me.
Miss M walks through the door and immediately turns to turn on the light.
She then gasps in horror.
As I step in the door behind her,
I am startled by her unexpected gasp
And when I see her starting at this,
And for scaring me 1/2 to death with her response.
She apologizes.
Then she says.
"I thought we got robbed."
Then I look at it again.
Through her eyes.
And I apologize to her.
To me, I saw a random light cover
That had somehow never gotten the screws
Put back in place three years ago.
(No clue how the heck that happened or how I had never noticed it before.)
To her,
She saw robbery.
Thief.
Violation.
Another layer.
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Praise Reports:
*For my dear friend taking Miss M to see Brave on Saturday and treating her little the special little princess she is while I went for some much needed friend-therapy time with another dear friend.
*Miss M loves church. As we walked out together on Saturday night she said. "I love coming to church here. It feels so peaceful."
*We received the grant from AFFCF for Miss M to attend the dance class!
Prayer Requests:
*Tomorrow the stabilization worker is supposed to come back. Praying 1) she comes, 2) she arrives around the planned time, and 3) Miss M is receptive and starts to apply the goals
*I've got some weekend dates coming up that I am supposed to work for my job. Praying I can find friends to watch over Miss M while I complete my commitment and that these friends don't feel taken advantage of in any way.
*Miss M's supposedly scheduled for a 4 hour visit with her mom and siblings on Saturday. I am fervently praying that it happens as planned.
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