A Funk

I woke up in a funk.

I slept well,
I think.
But I woke up in a funk.

Then,
Of course,
A certain eight year old couldn't quite pull herself together this morning.
---Seriously?  18 minutes to brush your hair, get dressed, and go to the bathroom?
---Grr.

So,

I wasn't a very patient foster mother.

Then I had training all morning.
It was one of those trainings where I know
I WILL need the information
SOMEDAY
But, not today and
Honestly,
My brain can't take anymore now.

So, 

I wasn't a very attentive student.

Then I get to work.
And the same 15+ kids
Still aren't doing their homework
And the same 5+ kids
Still are being turkeys
And today
I was tired of it.

So,

I wasn't a very effective administrator.

Then I picked up a certain eight year old from after school care
Only to find out that she gave the "CHEESE TOUCH" to another kid at school.
---Seriously?
---What author thought THAT would be a good new teasing game to
---introduce to children world wide.
---Darn you Diary of a Wimpy Kid books!!!

So,

I wasn't a very understanding foster mother.

Then I brought a certain little eight year old to my office
To work on her homework
While I caught up on some odd jobs.
And,
Of course,
She was NOT in the mood to write,
Or to think,
Or to work independently in any way
Shape
Or form.
---Writing topic this week:
---Write a paragraph to a friend that describes
---Three qualities of what makes a pet a good companion.
---Oy.  I don't do pets.  (Another story for another blog.)

So,

I wasn't a very helpful 

Or patient

Or understanding foster mother.

Then we left work
And I realized I had not planned dinner.
And I realized that I couldn't even think was in the fridge.
And I drove us to the nearest Panda Express.
And we sat there and ate.
Mostly in silence.
And I gave her the iPod to play on when she was done and I wasn't.

So,

I wasn't a very engaging foster mother.

Then we came home.
And I told a certain eight year old to get ready for bed.
And we read her bedtime Bible stories.
And we played roses and thorns.
And we prayed.
And
Somewhere in the middle of that,
I realized that I hadn't taken time to
Pray
Not really pray
All day.
Nope.
I was in a funk.
And I let it take me where it wanted.
And I rode the funk all day.
Crap.
I wallowed in the funk all day.

So,

I wasn't effective or productive

Today because I never turned my
Stress
Worry
Tiredness
Listlessness
Funkyness
Whateverness
Over to My Abba Father.
Nope.
Not once.
Not truly.

Well,
Crap
Again.

Thank goodness for new mercies every morning...
And sometimes at 9:05 pm at night during some deep moments of self-reflection.

The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:21-24

Praise Reports:
--Have I truly praised enough for the WONDERFUL, GENEROUS gift of God stirring the heart of dear friend paying for Ms. O to join us in Michigan?  And not only that...but two others as well???
--Saturday was a praise worthy day in that for the first time in my life I went to Goodwill to actually look for something rather than just drop something off.  I don't say it that way in a "prideful" way, but I've just never even thought to go there for myself before and then someone mentioned that it might be a good place to look for some "fall clothes" for the girls in Michigan.  God "happened" to lead me to Goodwill on their 50% off Saturday.  Seriously - everything was $50 off.  I'm all set with anything they need for Michigan!  So blessed.

Prayer Requests:
--I have a LOT of questions and need a LOT of paperwork from the girls' CPS caseworker and I am not receiving timing answers or responses to my questions and needs and it's causing me a lot of extra stress because the enemy is using it to steal my peace about the transition of Ms. O into the house and the tight timeline between her coming and the documentation I need for school registration and flying.  Please pray she begins to respond quicker and clearer.  Please pray I am clear in my requests, but also patient, and trusting it will get done.  Please pray that I can LET GO and LET GOD. It's times like these when I tend to over stress that I step up and attempt to grab the control panel from the Lord and try to make things go, go, go so I can then check them off my mental list.