A Praise Report and Prayer Request Wrapped up in One

October 14th is the day we are
Praying
Hoping
Trusting
That Ms. O will come and join Miss M and myself
In our little 1000 square foot condo.

That's the day after we return from Michigan.
It will be the start of the 2nd quarter in school-
Hoping that will make the transition smoother-
School-wise that is.

Ms. O is safe where she is.
She's got a great foster family.
But she doesn't have her sister
Or her brother.
And she desperately wants to be reunited.
We are trying
And praying
To make that happen sooner than later.
She's doing well
But is sad
But is lonely
Despite being in a household of people.
And we don't want the wait to long
And have it cause anxiety or behavior issues
Or more deep emotional scars.

Ms. O is deeply attached to her siblings.
She's stepped up and provided for them
In many ways
For many years
For many different reasons.
And at the age of 10
To be separated from them
Is affecting her big time.

Miss M -
As expected -
Is THRILLED!

As am I.

Honestly,
If I could make it happen tomorrow,
I would make it happen tomorrow.
I'm ready.
I'm prepared.
Not by MY strength.
Not by MY power.
But by HIS Spirit
HIS strength
HIS provisions
HIS grace.

On Saturday
After their visit with their Mom
Miss M
Ms. O
And Me
Are going to "hang" out.

I don't know for how long
Or where
Or what we'll do
But I CANNOT WAIT!

However,
I hate to tell her that Miss M and I
Are going to Michigan
Without her.

When I bought the tickets,
Ms. O coming wasn't on my radar.
If it would have been, I wouldn't have booked them.
Tonight I went online,
The cost to buy her a ticket now
Would be more than the price of our two tickets combined.

Please pray that
Her 10 year old mind will understand
Can understand
In some way, shape, or form.

It's really killing me.
She could come tomorrow -
If I didn't have the tickets for Michigan.
But-
I have to
Trust
Believe
Have Faith
That this is another part of God's perfect
Plan
Timing
Will.
I need to surrender the guilt.

I'm kind of amazed how connected I feel to Ms. O
Even though I've never met her.
But, since the moment the CPS worker
Asked me about taking her back in the end of August
And I learned about her
Her personality
Her motherly-traits
Her maturity
I felt connected.
And then started the waiting.
The praying.
The watching.

Miss M is ready.
I am ready.
God is giving the green light.
And
Here
We
Go.

October 14 can't come soon enough.