The thorns among the roses...

I didn't blog yesterday.
I couldn't.
I was hurt.
I was sad.
I was confused.

Still am, honestly.
Still will be, for a while.
A long while.

It's not Miss M.
It's not fostering.

There are just a lot of changes in my life.
Good, bad, and ugly comes with it.
Yesterday was ugly.

Reached out last night to two friends.
They prayed.
They prayed today.
I felt it.
Thank you, Lord.
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So...today was Friday.
Miss M had her wellness check at the doctor's.
It's taken several weeks to work out their schedule and mine to make this happen.
It happened today.
She is well.
She is healthy.
God is good.

School records came in from previous school yesterday.
Went to the doctor today.
Decision was made to get these updated.

Count them.  There were four.  There was supposed to be the flu spray as well, but they were out of the kind her insurance covers.  We go back in three months for three more and then two more three months after that.  I didn't even attempt to approach her with that news today.

She was a trooper.
Big time.
No tears.
So brave.
Held her on my lap.
Surreal.
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Today in her red take-home folder I found this.

It was on her desk for me to read during curriculum night.
I wasn't able to go.
Required class I had to attend.
I'm saving this one.
Maybe framing it.
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My cousin came into town this weekend for a wedding.
It's triple MMM time!
We went to Oregano's.
Miss M's pick.
She felt she deserved a chocolate chip pizza cookie after braving 4 shots.
We agreed.

All was well.
Until this -
Or something kind of like this -
Literally dived bomb her at the outside patio table.

I don't think I'll be able to get
the sound of Miss M screaming
"MOMMY" with complete
fear
horror
desperation
out of my head,
ever.

She dived bombed into my chair as a result.
Shaking.
Crying.
Sobbing.

It was
HUGE
(probably two of my thumbs stacked on top of each other)
YELLOW
(maybe?)
FLYING LIKE MAD.
(freaky part)
We didn't know what it was at first.
(We were all thinking Bee, for sure.)

People around us got up.
Helped shoo it away.
Kept an eye out in case it came back.
Offered to buy her a root beer float.
(Sweet, but the pizza cookie was still the priority.)
Stopped over as they left to assure her they would have done the same thing.


When we prayed for dinner Miss M said,
"Don't forget to pray to God that the beetle doesn't come back."

When my cousin asked her what her favorite science topic to study in school was,
Miss M said,
"Insects"
Then smiled and said,
"Well, I like to study them - I just don't like them dive bombing me outside."
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Can you guess what her two thorns were tonight when we prepared for sleep?
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Praise Reports:
*Miss M is doing wonderful academic work at school!  She loves to show off the graded and finished work she brings home. Doing well is very important to her.

Prayer Requests:
-Miss M and her mom and siblings have a family meet time tomorrow morning.  Last weekend the time together was cut way short because 1) the mom's cab didn't pick her up as planned and 2) the place in the community they attempted to meet at was crazy crowded and they couldn't really spend any quality time together.  Praying this Saturday's visit goes more smoothly.