Signs of Peace and Healing

My home

  The Littles home

     Our home

It is being restored

It is being transformed

It is finding it's new normal

And it feels right

It feels good

It feels peaceful

And I am breathing again.

And I am finding contentment in my calling again.

And I am smiling again.

And I am feeling whole again.

My Littles are thriving in the "new" house of peace.

Talking and questioning without corrections.

Singing and dancing without fear.

Laughing and chasing without worry.

Bathing and playing without interruption.

And we are just enjoying life together.

The past two weekends

Since Miz N went to her new home

We haven't gone anywhere except church. 

Pj-ing it

Emptying out every toy on to the family room floor

Spending hours messing around at the dinner table

And it is good.

It is right.

We have reclaimed our house.

Laughter and freedom has returned.

Peace is living here again.

It's actually hard to write it

To admit it

Because I feel somehow unfaithful to Miz N

Somehow unkind

But yet

It is true.
The house is sighing in relief,
As are our hearts and spirits in many ways.

I can feel it in our interactions.

I can hear it in our voices and giggles.

I can see it in the Littles lighted eyes and teasing smiles.

I am leaving work earlier 

And going to work later

And I am letting them stay up a little longer every night

Just to sneak a few more minutes together.

Bathtimes are longer and funner
And funnier.

Photo ops are begged for
And granted.

The carpet in the living room cannot be found
And I don't care.

The neighbors are probably sick of s singing in the top of our lungs
But Let It Go was meant to be screamed out in pure joy!

Signs of peace.

Signs of healing.

Thank you, God.

Praise Reports:

*Miz N is doing well at her new placement and new school.

*A-girl can sign her name in sign language.  Crazy - I know!

*Little Man is orally communicating with clarity more and more every day.

*I am moving forward and attempting to heal.

Prayer requests:

--Miz N would continue to heal and get the additional supports she needs at her new placement and that no services would be delayed as a result of the placement move.

--A-girl would show interest and a desire to be potty-trained.  She is 3 1/2 now and is definitely smart enough to be potty-trained but could totally care less.

--Little Man is almost 2 and someone, someone, somewhere showed/informed him how to scream at the top of his lungs, stick out his bottom lip, and give dirty looks on the turn of a dime.  

--While I am healing, I am also finding myself turning into more and more of a hermit as I am trying to heal - which really isn't the healthiest for me, or my Littles.  Some hard stuff going on at church isn't helping my mindset in this matter.