Only God, Part II

Only God
Would have two different tables
Come up to me and the Littles
On our last dinner out together
At their favorite restaurant
To tell me what wonderful children they were
And I could share that it was our last meal together as a foster family
And that they were being reunited with their mommy.

Only God
Would have A-girl tell me that she loves me
And that she will call me
And that she will have to come to her birthday party
On the way to their home.

Only God
Would have Little Man
Ask to hold my hand
As we were driving to their home
And then unconsciously rub it with his thumb as I drive down the 101.

Only God
Would allow me a bittersweet goodbye with my Littles
And as I am driving home pondering our past year together
Receive a phone call on the way home
From Miss M and Ms. O
Who have moved to the NE corner of the USA
And are happy
And are healthy
And just wanted to call to say they missed me.

Only God
Would have placed Petite Little Miss
In a home on the other side of Phoenix
Who just happens to be licensed through my same agency
Who just happens to be a stronger believer
Who just happens to have been praying for the Three Little Misses to be placed together
Who just happens to have been meeting an extra hour a week
With the Three Little Misses mom
To give her a little extra one-on-one time with Petite Little Miss
And to start praying with her
And to start reaching out to her
And who just happens to have been praying that the new foster momma
Would want to do the same.

Only God
Would have me signed up to provide respite for another foster child
During this transition time
And have my sweet neighbors - and fellow foster parents - and good friends
Call out of the blue
And ask if they could finish up the respite for this young girl
So I could have the transition night alone
After I said goodbye to the Littles
And then have the weekend and remaining days
Alone with two of my Three Little Misses
Before Petite Little Miss moves in on Tuesday afternoon.

Only God
Would have provided me with a heart of excitement
To go and pick up Big Little Miss
And Medium Little Miss
15 hours after dropping off the Littles
And have peace in my heart that this is right.

Only God
Would allow it to rain
Just a little
In the parking lot
As I picked up Big Little Miss and Medium Little Miss
From the shelter
Where they have been placed for the past six weeks
Rain just enough
To wash away the layer of dust on the van wall
That held the handprints of
Little Man
That held the dust drawing face of
A-girl

Only God
Would give me a heart full of pure love
And pure affection
For my Three Little Misses
(Before even meeting Petite Little Miss)
And yet not feel like I am replacing my Littles
And have room in my heart to love again
Even when I know it is just for a time
But it is for this time
And it is for these girls
And it is to help their mommy

Only God
Would provide me with two more
Sweet
Funny
Cute
With just the right amount of spice
Girls
To love on
To keep safe
To teach
To invest in.

Only God
Would have sense of humor to change my "desire"
For fostering school age girls
And to a love for fostering toddlers
And in this placement
Giving me three girls spanning three categories in foster care
Big Little Miss (5) - school age
Medium Little Miss (3 1/2) - toddler
Petite Little Miss (6 weeks) - newborn