My Own Little Funk

Weary
Irritable
Exhausted
Overwhelmed
Moody
Short-fused
Cranky
Touchy

These words are my norm
And they don't all
Typically
Hit me at the same time
But
Yesterday and today
They have
And I am not someone even I want to be around.

Granted
In the past month I have
Packed a condo
And unpacked into a house
Gotten strep
Treated two girls sick with strep
Enjoyed 3 weeks of my parents in town
Had some hard challenges at work
Continued to unpack into a house
Decorated a house
Spent too much money on decorating a house
Gotten the stomach flu
Got rear ended
Spent countless hours dealing with insurance people
Said goodbye to my parents
(And their help, their cooking, their hands on support)

But
In the past month I have also
Been given good wisdom
Blessed with family and friends helping in numerous ways
Not had to cook meals much
Spread out into a beautiful new home
Enjoyed gorgeous weather
Spiritually feed by multiple avenues
Been encouraged by new neighbors and friends
Felt His hand of protection and guidance
Decorated a new house to my joy
Had time off work
Had some alone time

Yet
I am in a funk
And the girls can set it off
Faster than anyone else
Miss M's seeking attention
(Any how, any way)
Ms. O's stubbornness
(Seriously...just uncross the arms and get over it)
None of it is new
None of it is different
Yet all of it is
Extremely
Annoying to me right now.
It's just me
Weary
Moody
Spent

I need to suck it up
Put on my big girl pants
And be the adult
And be the parent figure
And get on my knees
And ask for forgivenesses
And ask it again in some instances
And trust in my God to continue to
Provide
Strength
Uphold
Rejuvenate
Forgive
And
Love.

Prayer requests:
-Me and my self-centered funk
-Court date coming on at the beginning of April for the girls
-CFT for girls next Wednesday that I am unavailable to attend where they supposedly will be setting up services for the girls...but that
-I still have not received the DES foster stipend for February because the caseworker once again has not done what she needs...this is a key part of my monthly budgeting. Supposedly the paperwork was sent out yesterday.

Praise Reports:
-We are all safe, healthy, and blessed beyond words.
-The new house is amazing and the backyard and cul-de-sac area is such a blessing.
-The time with my parents and everything they did for me, the girls, and the house during their visit.